Let Jesus Fill the Gap

Hello friends! I am excited to share what I sense to be on God’s heart as I go through life. This may very well look like how a newborn calf looks, wobbly and unsure. But I promise to be real, raw, and write only truth. I hope that what I share will be uplifting, convicting, life-changing, and always pointing to Jesus. He is worth it all.

​“I am not enough. Jesus is.” These words hit me hard as I read them. This was exactly what I needed to read, to accept, and to live out. I realized I was spending way more time than I thought relying on my own strength. It was the key to unlocking all the anxiety, fears, second guessing, and insecurities I was battling. I share this because I also think this is a message our culture needs to hear. God wants us to bring light to the sin of putting ourselves above Him. The self love movement that has taken storm recently has a great message but as with most good things Satan will twist it and we end up relying less and less on God and more on ourselves. The irony is in an effort to be true to ourself we lose who we are meant to be. Jennie Allen said it perfectly, “Jennie, I want you to stop doing things for Me and start doing things with Me. We have some fields to plow and your eyes have been straight ahead, working and striving and pulling this heavy thing. Look next to you for one minute. Look over. There I am, little me strapped in next to an enormous Ox, and it’s God. He was always there. The reason I could rest wasn’t because the job is easy, and it wasn’t because I am capable of achieving it. It was only because I was strapped in next to GOD. He would do the work, and I could rest because He is so strong, so good, so kind.” Jennie Allen, Nothing to Prove 

How many times have I put so much weight on myself, thinking it was all up to me.  That I had to carry it all on my shoulders. My burdens. Other people’s burdens. The burdens of the world around us. We are not meant to carry that weight. I imagine Him pausing, sitting on a rock while He waits for me to get back on track. Patient, loving, steadfast. And when I return He says “I missed you daughter. You bring me such joy. Come beside me as we move forward. I have so much in store for you.” Stop striving, stop performing, stop pretending. Love yourself yes but also remember who is with you and live life fully as He intended. In community, being real, authentic, transparent, living out the plans He created for you, not the world. He’s got you. Lean on Him in all things. Remember that sometimes we aren’t enough and that’s ok. He knows that and still loves us, still chases us in all our imperfections. Let Jesus fill the gap.